Thursday, January 10, 2013
Daily Life - Mornings
It's a work in progress, that's for sure. I've always had trouble getting the whole of a thing done - the bedrooms are clean but the bathroom's a mess; homeschool is going great but I haven't spoken to a friend in weeks - and daily life in no exception.
Lately, though, I've wrestled the mornings into submission.
Summer light started it - dawn at the east facing window early. My sleep shifts with the seasons and in summer, I'm an early riser.
At 5 or 6 in the morning, no-one else is awake. I have the quiet house to myself. I open the windows wide to the cool morning air, letting out staleness and last night's dreams. Then I settle myself on the sofa, tablet at hand, and stream a meditation from a series recorded at our local Buddist centre.
Sometimes it's twenty minutes of excruciating mindlessness, sometimes mindfulness comes easier. But most mornings I sit. Attempt to focus on the breath, to practice loving kindness, to settle. Even on a bad day, I console myself with having at least stayed true to my intention - to cultivate a habit of meditation.
Tea comes next. It's always a struggle to put that cup of tea second. Madura, one large cup.
Then the garden. It's small, our garden. Won't win any prizes. Still, it needs care. Watering, pruning, raking. At that hour, the birds are my only company. Even the sun isn't high enough to peer over the roof.
Lastly, a poem. Reading under my breath, catching the rhythms.
The guinea pigs begin to squeak for grass. One sleepy child comes looking for me. The day begins.